Friday, March 4, 2011

Fear and letting go

Fear is a funny thing. I think it keeps us motivated in some ways by pushing us through certain obstacles, but it can also hold you back. Sometimes we do things just to feel that fear, like sky diving or roller coasters. Its like an adrenaline rush and then the feeling you get once you accomplish something you were scared of feels very fulfilling. There are plenty of things I'm afraid of like I love to sing, I mean really love it and most people that I feel comfortable with tell me I'm really good. When it comes to singing in front of a big crowd or even a small one depending who the people are, I tend to freeze up. I have asked myself why is that so many times, or have left knowing I could have done better and really impressed but didn't because I let the fear within me win. It's a battle and I strive to push through it. I want to use fear to do better and not let it hold me back. I'm certainly not saying I'm going to start openly singing in front of large crowds tomorrow, I'm not sure I even want to. What I do want,  is to never hold back when it comes to things that really matter. It's going to be a long road because the reason we feel fear is sometimes deeper then you realize. Did someone hold you back, were they negative in your life and during impressionable times did they discourage you? I'm sure we have all had moments like this in various different times in our lives. Let these things that are not so good leave your heart, learn from all the mistakes you make, and dig deeper within to find the lesson. If you do this then nothing comes with regret because a lesson was learned and that's what we are here to do, learn, grow and give the most of ourselves to ourselves and the ones we love. Next time you will know better and do better and this comes with great reward. I'm here to tell you now that you are wonderful and the potential that you have within yourself is greater then any hurtful words someone may have spoken. It is a hard thing to do to turn away from negative people in your life but sometimes more then necessary. You're not giving up on them they are just in a different space then you and you deserve to feel happy and be around happy people. I've had to do this many times and now everywhere I turn I have nothing but positive energy swirling around me and people that really lift me up and help guide me and in return I hope to do the same for everyone that turns to me. This is a wonderful world full of possibility and anything you set your mind and heart on you can see come to life. I'm so excited I get to be a mom soon and will have the opportunity to really encourage Rylan to live life to the fullest, that everyday is a gift and that we are capable of doing anything as long as your heart and passion are in the right place. So let go of fear within yourself, instead be pushed by love and security. You can achieve anything if you believe you can! I believe you can! This little song is for you to know you are not alone, I will always be here for you and wish you nothing but the best...always.

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I hope you all have a good weekend! I'm excited about mine, our baby shower is tomorrow! yay!!

Hoping to fill your hearts with happiness as you read all my blog entries,  :0)


I didn't have a picture looking fearful so I added this one where I'm smiling at you instead! :0)


  1. Wow! Really needed to read that! Brought tears to my eyes! Im facing a really BIG fear now! The thing i love the most, i fear the most, flowers....I have been discouraged into giving up because seasoned designers have felt different bout my work... i use to design from the heart now i designed based on others vision instead of my own, this is why i have yet to step out on faith and right now. Im scared to Fail! Im at the point now where im like forget it! Im desperate and ready..but still that little voice says no!!! U cant!! So im battling! Keep me in prayer boo! Love u!!!!

  2. By the way pretty picture and u guys are going to be azing parents!!

  3. Ohhhh Miko! I'm so glad that it touched your heart! You really are so unique and special and the passion you have for your art really shines through! Never question that, God gave you the talent and ability and now all you have to do is believe! I believe in you wholeheartly and will always support you! What you do is very very talented and I'm always so amazed how much beauty pours out from each arrangement you make! I will be praying and thinking of you in the most positive way, I know you can accomplish anything! Please don't forget that! Love you!:0)

  4. I posted this to your page too in case you didn't see this here... love you